MYD Retreat

It all started with the desire to be a part of something meaningful.

Being a fresh graduate from the UK and coming back to Malaysia meant that I could turn over a new leaf. I decided that I want to be involved in anything environmental-related. But starting anew has its challenges and one of it is finding a group of people who share similar interests. Then again, I suppose it’s not much different than finding a society to join in university.

The first time I heard about the Malaysia Youth Delegation (MYD) was during the BB4SCP event in December when one of the delegates was invited by WWF-Malaysia to give a brief talk. MYD is a part of the non-governmental organisation Power Shift Malaysia (or formally, Persatuan Belia Perubahan Iklim) that deals with climate change advocacy and mobilisation. Members of MYD track the Paris Agreement negotiations and engage with the government ministries to basically ensure that they keep their promises.

At the BB4SCP event in December 2016

Some weeks later in January, they posted an event on their Facebook page – the Post-COP22 forum. As I wanted to learn more about how the Paris Agreement relates to Malaysia, I decided to attend the event. After listening to the panel of speakers, I got to have a little chat with Mr Nithi Nesadurai, the president of the Environmental Protection Society Malaysia and took a photo with Dr Gary Theseira, a climate change negotiator from the Ministry of Natural Resources and Environment. That forum sparked an interest in being a part of MYD because I figured that if I wanted to be a part of a movement, I should be a part of a group that does substantial work.

Those who attended the post COP22 forum (photo by Power Shift Malaysia)
Dr Gary is the one in the middle with the grey tie (photo by Power Shift Malaysia)

And so, I brushed up my knowledge on the UNFCCC structure as a whole and waited for the time to apply for MYD. That time came, I applied, got interviewed and got invited to the Retreat. Mind you, the application process took me quite a number of hours over a couple of weeks to prepare because I’m rather a perfectionist and I needed to fully understand what I’m signing up for.

The Retreat

On the 15th of April, I drove about an hour to the University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus in Semenyih. The purpose of this MYD Retreat was to allow the applicants to have a taste of what being a part of MYD is like. The first day was mostly about introductions, knowing what role MYD plays, what other programmes are being done by Power Shift Malaysia, and what the bloody hell the UNFCCC actually is so that we were all on the same page.

Even though it was mostly presentations throughout the day, I didn’t feel bored at all. It’s most probably because it was a two-way street all the way. It was very relaxed and informal, but we took the subject matter seriously. The presenters were very patient with our questions and I could see how they were very keen to answer them without judgement.

I’m so glad that all of us – participants and organisers – got along very well from the get-go. I guess this proves the point that you can get along so easily with like-minded people. We each hold on to the core value of caring for the environment, so that was the line of connection we had regardless of our differences. We knew that to make a change, we need to work together and help each other out. So, it’s like giving a lift instead of pushing each other off a cliff.

Mind Blown

There was just so much information showered upon us that I couldn’t blame anyone for feeling a bit overwhelmed. But all the information was necessary and it was only the tip of the iceberg. There’s definitely a lot more going on in the climate change negotiation process, and so I think the info presented during the Retreat was either meant to scare us or motivate us. For me, it’s definitely the latter.

I think the most challenging talk for us to process was the one given by Chee Yoke Ling about the disputes between Developed and Developing nations on the climate change negotiation. Yoke Ling is one of the members of the Third World Network (TWN), “an independent non-profit international network of organisations and individuals involved in issues relating to development, developing countries and North-South affairs”. So she’s a BIG deal. I was told that other international youth environmental organisations would die for a chance to meet any of the TWN members. In that case, I consider myself lucky.

Before the Flood

This documentary was screened at 8pm on the first day. This was my second time watching it and I felt quite the same way as I did the first time – angry, frustrated, sad and a bit sceptical. The science is clear, climate change is happening, the solutions are available, and yet as a community, we are still reluctant or slow to change. I get that it’s difficult and that it means altering a bit of your lifestyle, but if we don’t take the initiative, future generations will suffer. That means your children and grandchildren unless you decide not to have children. In any case, I hope you can spare some love for Mother Nature.

Broga Hills

On Sunday morning around 7am, we went to Broga Hills, which was about 5 mins away. This was also a part of the agenda and one that I was most excited about. This was my first time hiking up Broga Hills and I absolutely enjoyed every bit of it! We climbed up until the 2nd viewing point that was 1,150 ft (350.5 m) above sea level. I was quite out of breath by then but felt so accomplished that I sang to the tunes of Sound of Music.

Along the way, we picked up rubbish left by careless people. One of us had thought to bring a black garbage bag. This person knew that there would be trash up there because he had climbed the hill at least 7 times and sadly, there is always rubbish.

The view from atop was a mix of hills and lowland. I could see the majestic hills disappearing into the blue horizon. The lowland area had a mix of trees, shrubs, oil palm plantations, bare red land, and houses. Not very scenic, in my opinion. But I guess the feeling of being on top of the world sufficed in silencing any other subjective thoughts.


Sharing Session

The rest of the afternoon on the second day was spent listening to the MYD members talk about their experiences going to the COP events and asking them other burning questions we had. I liked the afternoon session because it was personal and insightful.

From this session, I gathered that being the ones representing the youth of Malaysia on an international level is no easy task. There are lots of challenges such as having to attend as many plenary sessions as possible, reporting whatever information gathered on the spot, and dealing with unexpected circumstances such as delayed flights or rejected visas. And as Adrian Yeo, a co-founder of Power Shift Malaysia and MYD, said, “sleep is optional during COP”. Sounds intense!

Not The End

My contribution towards the climate change movement has only just begun. I know that I’m firm with my decision to persevere in this endeavour and I hope to work with the rest of the prospective MYD members in preparation for COP23 in Bonn this year. It’s going to be tough, I know, but as long as I have friends around me to hold me accountable, I’m sure I will work it out. I must always remember that this is not a one-man show. To change something so significant requires teamwork.

And I think I’ve found my team.



gratitude to earth

Earth is important because we live on Earth and we depend on Earth’s resources. We need the oxygen from trees to breathe and we need food from the soil for sustenance. We need the clouds to produce rain to fill up the river for us to drink, and most importantly, we need the Sun to give us Energy.

Unfortunately, there are quite a number of us who take that for granted or perhaps have forgotten about Earth’s many gifts. Instead, we treat the Earth like we do our exes or enemies – like trash.

We purchase plastic bags and bottles and then we discard them in the bin thinking that the rubbish collector will sort them out. We buy smart phones every two years because new ones seem better and we don’t think that perhaps human lives were shortened just so our smart phones could have longer lives. We use polystyrene plates at events because it’s cheaper and easier – we don’t have to wash them, just throw them away after use and all will be well.


Whatever items we throw without thinking would come back to bite us in the arse. The polystyrene cups and disposable straws we discard would go to landfills. Landfills are just a plot of bare land that used to have trees growing on them, land that huge holes have been dug to bury the trash. To let it decompose. We would think it’s good because it would then be out of sight.

But the soil suffers. The chemicals will leach into the soil and if the landfill is near an agriculture land, then our food will be affected. If it is near a river, the freshwater lives will be lost. The ecosystem becomes unbalanced. It struggles to achieve equilibrium again, as we human beings continuously dump more synthetic weight, more chemicals onto Earth.

And it’s not just the land. The oceans become affected, too. Population increase prompts the development of cities leading to more trash produced. When there is not enough land to hide the evidence of our irresponsibility, the rubbish goes to sea.

Don’t get me started on what happens to the rubbish at sea.

On second thought, let me just list down what happens:

  1. Rubbish is eaten by fish and whales thus slowly and painfully killing them.
  2. Plastic ringlets become unnecessary corsets for sea turtles, damaging their beautiful protective shells.
  3. Plastic straws stuck in the noses of those turtles.
  4. Albatross consumes plastic toys and such, eventually dies.
  5. The formation of the Great Pacific Garbage Patch.

If those things don’t sound horrible to you, I’d suggest you have a good check on your humanity.

It seems like whatever we throw away irresponsibly would result in death of a living species along the way. To me, regardless if it’s a direct or indirect killing, it is still a crime that one is a part of. And yes I do feel guilty upon realising this and I am trying very hard to change the throwing away habit by practising the 5Rs.

But it’s still so very difficult to keep motivated or consistent, as I am basically going against the default system. It’s just like swimming against the current. It takes so much effort and sometimes it would feel as though it’s better to just drown.


It’s never better to give up. The earth has done so much more for me than I could ever contribute to it, which makes it all the more necessary for me to keep on caring for the environment until my last breath. I must show my gratitude for the trees, the soil, the Sun by endeavouring to live sustainably and consciously.

And you should, too, if you live on Earth.

Sustainable Consumption & Production | #BB4SCP

On the 1st of December, I had the opportunity to attend a 3-day workshop or conference organised by WWF Malaysia and EcoKnights. This was the first youth conference on sustainable consumption and production (SCP) in this country. Therefore, I was one of the pioneers, which was obviously a great honour.

Most of the participants were university students, which was not a surprise since that was the organiser’s target group. But anyone between the ages of 18 and 30 could attend. I fit into the category just fine and so I asked permission from my employer to attend this conference as part of the training hours that each employee is given.

Thankfully, my colleague also attended the conference so at least I had a familiar face to go to. But really I got along with the attendees there that I hardly felt alienated. We all shared a similar interest in conserving the environment albeit in different ways. And that was enough to create an easy friendship.

The first day consisted of ice-breaking sessions and various introductory talks on the topic of sustainability, namely sustainable wood, palm oil and fishing. I might write individual blog posts on each topic, as it is difficult to summarise such big and important topics. But generally, the talks given highlighted the realness of climate change backed up by science facts. And most of the impacts we see today are the direct result of human intervention.

We were indeed active participants. Many of us asked questions and give our opinions, which was quite unlike the general perception of Malaysian students. But then again, we were not the typical sort. Our minds are progressive and our hearts compassionate. Even so, those of us who preferred to not speak our thoughts had a chance to write them onto sticky notes that were put on a designated wall and probably collected by the organisers for future perusal. In any case, they made a point that our thoughts will – and must – be heard.


my contribution


On our second day, we were split into two groups for an outdoor excursion — one group was to visit a wet market, and the other to the headquarters of the Energy Commission. I was in the latter group, which was a relief because I wouldn’t want to go to a wet market to witness various sea creatures being sold as food. As the only vegan at the conference, I don’t think I could bear it regardless of them being caught sustainably.

The Energy Commission or Suruhanjaya Tenaga was located in Putrajaya. It is known as the Diamond Building because of — you guessed it — the Diamond shape of the building! Well, actually you can’t really see it from the ground but looking at aerial shots of the building, it is indeed a Diamond.

Shine Bright Like A Diamond! (image from

What’s special about this building is the green technology incorporated into its design. There are photo voltaic (solar) panels on the rooftop, which contribute to 10% of the energy consumption. There were also water tanks on the roof to harvest rainwater for irrigation for plants grown around the building. The rainwater is also used to supply water in the toilet.

The Diamond structure of the building was purposeful. Sunlight is able to be reflected from the ground and into the building without the heat because the walls lined with glass windows were at an angle, not allowing direct sunlight to enter. The dome in the middle of the building allows an abundance of natural sunlight to enter thus minimising the need for fluorescent lamps in the building. Furthermore, the white painted walls play a role in reflecting sunlight within the building. Basically, good lighting (for selfies) can be got almost everywhere in the building!

The building was no doubt specifically constructed to be efficient, reflecting the profile of the Energy Commission. A couple of talks were given mostly about energy efficiency and renewable energy. I was very much interested in where Malaysia is going in terms of renewable energy and so I was quite pleased on hearing that solar energy is taking root. What many may not know is that solar panels can be installed within the home compound such as on roofs or on a considerably sized land, and you may use the energy generated or effectively sell it to the grid and you would only pay a lesser amount for your electricity bills.

There are of course certain conditions to installing solar panels. For example, if you use more than a certain amount of energy from your solar panels i.e. more than 72 kWh, you would have to let the energy commissions know. That means you can’t really live off-grid in luxury. You can live off-grid without the need to tell anyone if your energy consumption (from solar) is less than 72 kWh. At least I think that’s what they meant.



On the final day, we headed to Encorp Strand Mall for the public forum. There was the guest of honour, Jens Brinckmann, who is from Germany and currently works at the German embassy in KL as a counsellor for economic, commercial and environmental affairs. One thing to note is that this event was supported by WWF Germany. Hence, the presence of Herr Brinckmann.

A few other speakers gave their talks: Thiagarajan Nadeson, the head of market and education at WWF Malaysia, who summarised the role and importance of SCP nationally and internationally; Benjamin Loh, manager of WWF Malaysia who spoke about sustainable palm oil; and Oga Chan, a community builder, who presented about the various sustainable small businesses and efforts in this country.

The rest of the afternoon was spent wandering around the fair and getting know the various ecocentric small and medium enterprises (SMEs). Biji-biji is by far my favourite because they are geared towards upcycling materials and turning into bags or wallets — embracing the ethical fashion. They also teach woodworking and simple electronics engineering for a greener lifestyle.


I really enjoyed this event and I’m truly grateful to have experienced it with like-minded, environmentally aware and passionate people. Not only was this my first time attending an event focused on the environment, but it was also my first experience living in a dorm with 11 other girls – it was great!

This conference really fueled my passion for being a guardian or khalifah of the Earth. I got to learn more about the environmental issues in Malaysia and the move towards sustainable consumption. I also got to watch Al Gore’s documentary “An Inconvenient Truth”, which I had been wanting to see for many months! It’s crazy to think that despite it being produced 10 years ago, it is still very much relevant.

So with all the knowledge I’ve gathered, it is now my duty to spread it around. It is so important for each human being to care as much for the Earth as they do the people they love. This is simply because without the fertile land we currently live on, there can be no people to love.



for more info about the event, visit the BB4SCP website!

pause. reflect. update

I thought of starting off with some wise, deep sentiment about how we often portray ourselves as characters we wish to become and forgetting our unique personalities… but then I thought nahhh let’s just be a bit informal today 🙂

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So it has been a while. I did not post anything for about 2 months. It was kind of expected but dreaded. When something new comes into my life, it would disrupt nearly everything. And this new thing is work, as in a paid, 9 to 5 job.

I completed exams in the beginning of June. I graduated at the end of June, and I started work on the 1st of November. So it was about 4 months of leisure plus job hunting. If I had it my way, I would have wanted a gap year of some sort. Maybe do volunteering or internship work. Or start a small business, or travel, or try something new and exciting.

But I quickly realised that none of those would have been possible.

Now before you think I’m pessimistic or argue that “anything is possible if you just believe”, try to understand my situation. I was a fresh graduate with little to my name. Sure my parents had financially supported my education but that was just that. Since I had graduated, it was not their responsibility to financially support me anymore. I would have to support myself. And because the system of the world we are living in is based on money, I had had no choice but to acquire an income to be able to live adequately.

I am lucky to be able to get a job so soon and one that I am quite happy with. I used to say that I would not like to have a 9-5 job and thought of doing something I would actually enjoy or perhaps starting my own business. But because I enjoy so many things and that I know nearly nothing about running a business, a normal office job seemed to be more likely than anything.

And so I set up a condition for myself. If I have to work at an office, it must be something I would find of value, not a corporate company (if possible), and pays relatively well for a fresh graduate. Thankfully, Fate (God) managed just that for me. I am now working as a trainee consultant at a private, local environmental consulting company.

It is a job I find of value because it deals with the environmental sector, which I had for months thought of going into after graduation even though it is not the subject written on my graduation certificate. In case you’re curious, I graduated with a BSc Natural Sciences in Chemistry and Biology. Most would think that hey, Biology! It’s definitely related to the environment. I would then reply, no, what I did was more towards Biotechnology and Microbiology. It is probably only 5% related to the environment, or less. Then, they would show a look of understanding, but I will never be sure whether they truly did.

Now that I am a bit more stable, I think I know how to fit in time for blogging. And I feel the need for a bit of a change. My blog has basically been a bit of everything — books, food, lifestyle, random thoughts. I know I can’t focus on just one thing where there’s a high probability of getting more followers. My aim has never been about the numbers; it’s about sharing my perspective in life and spreading positive vibes. And I will continue to be as miscellaneous as ever.

However, I would like to focus more on the topics like philosophy, spirituality, sustainability, and the environment, and less on the random stuff. I will continue to write book reviews, as reading is a constant activity in my life. I understand that some of you may have followed me for the bookish things, as I have thought of going into book blogging. But as I’ve said, it’s unlike me to focus on just one thing because there are just so many things to share! So, I apologise if my content doesn’t please you. You may unfollow whenever you feel like it.

So the whole theme of this blog is about my journey of living a meaningful and conscious life that touches upon the subjects like minimalism, spirituality and sustainability. I am also an advocate of veganism and a fervent environmentalist. I strive for compassion in all avenues of life. So if this sounds interesting to you, I hope you would follow my blog and hopefully start a discussion.

Also, I write this to inform you that this current URL (thevioletspirit) will be changed to standardise with all of my social media. So if you would like to continue reading my stuff and supporting me, do follow my blog so that you would still be in the loop when I do change my URL by the end of this week. Otherwise, I thank you for reading and I wish you all the best in the New (Gregorian) Year! 🙂

Before the Flood

This is free. Watch it. No excuse.

What a profound movie! I was genuinely brought to tears towards the end during the part where the astronaut, Dr Piers Sellers showed us the model simulation of temperatures, carbon dioxide, and humidity movement around Earth. He simply said that based on scientific predictions, climate change can be stopped or reversed if we stop burning fossil fuel. To do that, us humans as citizens of Earth have to shift our mindset and change our habits gearing towards renewables. And the most heartwarming part of his narrative was about his hope in humanity.

I liked how in the beginning Leonardo DiCaprio did admit that he didn’t know much about climate change. And so the movie was his journey learning about it and in a way, I felt like going on that journey with him as well. I’ve been reading about the impacts of climate change but I’ve never actually looked at it. Some things are truly beyond our imagination. So this movie gave me the chance to see it for myself even though I couldn’t physically be at those places. 

I T    I S    U P    T O    A L L    O F    U S

1. consume differently and more consciously — think about what you buy, what you eat and how you get your power.

2. vote for leaders who will fight climate change — end fossil fuel subsidies, invest in renewables, leave fossil fuels in the ground, support carbon tax.